Aimee's Testimony of Healing
This is my testimony of healing and restoration. For me, not only
did I receive healing in my own body and mind, but with it came
an anointing and an authority over sickness in others lives. I believe
that God allowed me to experience the health challenges I have so
that I would learn to take authority over these things, to learn
the power I have over them through the blood of Jesus and be able
to set others free as a result.
I was once considered disabled. I once had brain damage. I once
died and went to heaven. I once could not walk and would often pass
out from pain so severe that I would spend weeks stuck on the floor.
I would sleep with my cell phone just to be able to call work to
tell them I couldn't walk. This is the period of my life where I
did no formal ministry. It was a period of my life where at the
time I didn't understand what God was doing but I see now the Lord
was allowing me to come against some of the worst demonic powers
that cause sickness so that I could take new ground for the kingdom.
The last fight I had with the enemy in this regard was when God
healed my back at the Citadel Church in 2008. I had not been able
to walk without pain for ten years. I had a bulging disk and it
felt like a knife in my hips and my legs. I wore a piece of elastic
around my hips to hold me together. I was healed and I went jogging
for the first time in ten years.
I will tell you I learned that the enemy always tries to return
with affliction. One night I was awoken by a demon harassing me.
I have always been able to see into the spirit and I could see this
particular demon was dressed in military like gear. However, everything
he had on him were gadgets to cause pain and torture people. I got
up out of my bed and I walked right up to the demon and I looked
him straight in the eyes. I could see evil as he attempted to distort
his face to try and intimidate me and I could feel the fear he attempted
to attack me with. But by this time I had fought this demon far
too long and I had had enough! I spoke these words at the top of
my lungs and with a fire I am sure he will never forget! "I
have been giving all authority to trample on snakes and scorpions,
all power over the power of the enemy!" I declare that no weapon
formed against me shall prosper. I take that authority right now
and I rebuke you and command you to go in the name of Jesus and
I declare you cannot return! He has never messed with me again!
That was the end of the battle, but my fight began in 2000. I was
heartbroken, I was unemployed, and my house was hit by lightening
which damaged my phone line and then all my communication was cut
off from friends. I was alone and hurting. I had once been on fire
for the Lord and although I loved Him deeply I couldn't break through
the warfare and my broken heart. I had a great heaviness over me
and I didn't understand why I could not break through it.
I remember telling someone that I felt something was about to happen
at the end of February, I thought it was something good that was
about to happen. But then on February 29, 2000 I was on my way to
pick up a friend to take her to work. It was very early and no one
was on the road. I was traveling down a four lane highway, two lanes
going my direction, two lanes going the opposite direction. I was
traveling south in my far right hand lane and approaching a green
light. Just before I came to the light a pickup truck coming from
the opposite direction, in his far right hand lane, suddenly turned
and drove across all the lanes including a turn lane and stopped
in front of my car. In seconds, my car hit his. My head hit the
window and I was knocked out. When I came to I realized my car keys
had gone into my right knee, I could feel blood dripping down my
head but I didn't realize I was bleeding internally. I then noticed
the massive pain in my left arm. It had been completely shattered
into a zillion pieces and I couldn't move it. It was the air bag
that had shattered it.
Next I remember someone opening my door and I handed him my cell
phone to call my mom. I felt the presence of the Holy Spirit so
strong even while I was screaming in pain. I knew He was right there
with me. The ambulance finally came and they could not get me out
of my car so I had to climb out myself. This was after they took
my shattered arm and pulled it out straight to the side, as I screamed
in pain, then they had to put it to my side again so I would fit
into the ambulance. The medic noted that my bone had broken through
my skin not because that was what happened but because after moving
my arm around it appeared that it would.
Once inside the ambulance I remember praying in tongues out loud
and telling the fireman about Jesus. They gave me medicine for the
pain but it did nothing and I had to remain awake for the visit
to the hospital. When we reached the hospital and they took my x-rays
I joked with the doctors and had them laughing so hard that when
I did leave the entire staff saw me off to Harborview where I would
then eventually undergo three surgeries to attempt to save my arm.
I have always found that laughing is key to making it through any
crisis in life, especially when you are the one in the crisis. My
parents had met up with me by then and stood praying and I asked
my stepdad to speak the word over me to quiet my heart.
I don't have much memory after that, until I woke up in the hospital
after a few days. This is when I was told I was disabled, that my
funny bone or ulner nerve had been cut in half and that I would
never use my arm again. But it was also when God spoke and what
He said made what man said irrelevant. That day when they were to
diagnose me as disabled I could do everything they said was impossible.
See they saw for six hours during surgery that my nerve was cut
in half. It is documented on paperwork I have to this day. Without
that nerve you cannot operate your hand or arm and nerves do not
medically regenerate. Small ones can find new paths, but large ones
like that do not heal. But God actually healed mine. That was the
day that eight surgeon's surrounded my bed and saw a miracle. One
doctor jumped back and his jaw dropped. To this day if I go into
the hospital the doctors are amazed because my healing is a documented
one. What I can do today is medically impossible. However, at the
time even though they said that a miracle had taken place my arm
would still be stuck in the bent position due to the trauma I had
gone through. This was a healing I had to believe for and let me
tell you, not everyone believed. I had one friend tell me that she
did not think God would heal me. I was abandoned by most of my friends
at this point in my life. I learned to do things with one hand and
I learned to live by faith.
Every week I would go to my therapy appointments and I would fight
for use of my arm. I fought for the use of my hand. I learned how
to use my fingers again and I built strength up in my hand so I
could hold things. I did all of this while believing God for a miracle.
They would make molds to stretch my arm out at night and by the
time I would go to bed my arm would be straighter than the mold...God
was doing a miracle.
I had to undergo two more surgeries and repeat the therapy process.
Prior to the last surgery I had, the pins had shot through my wrist
and skin from the inside and were infected, this was an "accident"
that happened during therapy - they were not suppose to do that.
I had to live for awhile with these pins or metal rods sticking
out of my wrist and it wasn't until a surgeon had saw my wrist by
mistake that he demanded I get into surgery because it was apparent
I was close to losing my hand from the infection.
It was after this last surgery that I died. I had spent the night
in the hospital and was fine, but when I went home the next day
I was lying in my bed at night and I stopped breathing. I will share
with you my experience...
I was staying with my pastors at the time. And I was in an upper
room in their home. It was night time and I was attempting to sleep
even though the fifteen pins and screws and the two plates in my
arm were cutting into me like a million knives. But as I lay there
in an instant I suddenly stopped breathing. I instantly left my
body and I looked at myself lying in the bed. Then in yet another
instant I was in heaven. It was a familiar setting as I had visited
once when I was 16 and had a very long experience of being taken
around heaven and shown things and experienced many things. The
gate that is made of one pearl was there but this time there was
no one with me, no one holding me back from going all the way inside.
It was bright, white and the farther I got to the gate entrance
the brighter it got. I was filled with such an amazing peace that
I cannot put it into words. I had no pain, no cares anymore, and
no worries; just peace. It was the presence of the Lord. And He
welcomed me with open arms. I was home and I never even thought
about earth I was just happy to be home. I then saw my grandmother
standing there a little ways away, along with my friend John who
died in 1998. They stood there in expectation waiting to greet me.
Then suddenly it hit me. I don't know if it was the Lord who revealed
it or why I noticed it. But it seemed heaven was way too empty.
I felt the heartbreak of the Lord for the missing people. Then the
Lord asked me, "Aimee, are you ready to come home?" I
looked at Him and although I really didn't want to leave I replied,
"No Lord, not everyone knows you. I need to go back and tell
them that they can know you." Instantly, just as fast as I
had left I found myself back in my bed coughing and gasping for
air. The Lord had granted my request and I was sent back to share
the gospel with this world and to tell everyone how to know Him
intimately. Heaven is far too empty! It is because of this experience
that to this day I know my purpose on this earth is to let people
know about the Lord, that they can really know Him not just about
Him.
The following months were filled with more pain and struggle. One
especially painful night I thought my youth pastor had come into
the room and gave me some things to eat. He told me it would make
the pain go away. I took it and then mentioned it to my pastors
in the morning to thank him. Their reply was that no one had entered
my room. No one had been at the house and the youth pastor hadn't
even visited. I believe it was an angel that was taking care of
me but because I thought it was the youth pastor I didn't question
it. I believe that is why I saw the healing in my body so quickly
because I was being ministered to.
The other thing that made my recovery difficult was that I had
lost a lot of blood during my surgeries so my energy was low. In
fact, at one point I had a doctor and nurse arguing over me about
weither or not to do a blood transfusion. I had been asleep but
woke up and at the time really had no clue what they were talking
about. But I opened my mouth and said, "Do we have to do it
now?" They replied, "No." Then I asked, "Can
you do it later if we need to?" And they replied, "Yes."
So then I told them, "Then let's not do it if we don't have
to." The nurse proclaimed. "The patient has spoken!"
This kept me from having to have a blood transfusion and the miracle
about that was shortly after it was released in the news that the
blood had been contaminated with the aids virus. So once again,
God saved my life this time by keeping me from that transfusion.
The road of recovery was long. Living by faith that God is going
to heal you is a difficult one, especially when you are facing facts
that contradict what you see. I remember sitting in my attorney's
office and finding out I may not get a whole lot of anything back
financially from my accident. At the time, the only thing I knew
was computers. But with only one hand there would be no way I could
do an office job. I had no clue how I was going to support myself.
I knew my heart was for ministry but I also knew that was not happening
anytime soon. I sat in my attorney's office and they said to me,
"Well consider yourself lucky, we have had clients who have
had total permanent brain damage and cannot function from accidents
that were not their fault and not get a penny."
I walked out of the office that day feeling very helpless at very
least. What is interesting is that during my recovery I received
more prophetic words for ministry than I ever had before. So God
was not silent. He spoke loud and clear but it was my circumstances
that fought to drown Him out. I had so many people come up to me
with ways to be healed, trying to put magnets on me and all sorts
of weird stuff. I spent most of my days at Harborview Hospital getting
x-rayed, waiting to see doctors and seeing others come in with injuries.
I spent a lot of time talking to others who were facing circumstances
worse than I was and it gave me perspective on my own struggles.
One night at church I was worshiping the Lord with my one hand
and I reminded the Lord that He said I would lay hands on the sick
and they would be healed. That He had called me to have a healing
ministry. I reminded Him that He said "hands" that I would
lay my hands on people - not my one hand. To understand what happened
next you have to know something special between me and the Lord.
Often when I am worshiping and I raise my hands to the Lord I can
feel Him grab my hands. It is just something special between us.
Well this particular night as I worshiped the Lord with my one hand
in the air, I felt Him grab both of my hands in response to my prayer.
I knew at that moment that He was going to heal me.
I did eventually start back to my job, gain healing in my arm and
life seemed to start to carry on. However, one thing I discovered
after the fact was that I had brain damage called TBI. It is where
your brain is injured by being shaken. I started to love everyone
intensely, everything anyone ever did to me had absolutely no power,
but at the same time I could not take conversations, was overwhelmed
easily, could not separate fiction from real life and could not
get jokes. I had no mental filter to tell what was real or not.
I had this for about three months, which from what my doctors told
me is past the point anyone recovers. Only 1 percent of the population
ever recovers from TBI and that percentage are those who recover
shortly after injured. So for me it was another miracle of healing.
The hard part was that no one was told I had brain damage and it
caused a lot of misunderstandings and I had a hard time interacting
with people. No one understood and at the time my pastor thought
it was because of God that it seemed all my past hurts were erased
and the love that I was expressing to others. I was miraculously
healed of TBI and it was also a miracle.
You can imagine at this point I became a guinea pig for the medical
community. First I was tested by a psychologist for mental health
and full recovery. I had to do written tests and be evaluated for
quite some time. They also spent time dealing with the trauma and
nightmares I had from the accident. I was able to talk about my
death experience and was assured that the experience had nothing
to do to my brain injuries. I had not been on pain medication during
that time because it made me really sick, so for most of my recovery
I just took ibuprofen.
I was then contacted by Harborview and they sent me surveys to
test my mental state and tested me to try and figure out why I recovered.
Doctors called me and asked me a series of questions. Test after
test after test. I also noticed that with all the metal in my arm
I was able to detect earthquakes. The pain I felt was directly linked
to the earthquakes we were having and I was able to predict one
very large earthquake prior to it happening because of the pain
in my arm. It was because all of my nerves were healing and the
amount of metal in my arm. My doctor told me to call him whenever
I felt anything. LOL
I was sent to the hospital and hooked up to electrodes, a metal
cap, and they turned the electricity on
then they took a needle
dug it into my hand and dug around in my nerves. Since my paperwork
said my nerves were dead they paid no attention to my discomfort.
In fact I was sweating so bad from the pain of the tests that one
doctor said to me calmly, "You might think of some surgery
for that sweating problem." He had no clue the pain I was in!
All of my tests came back that I was healthy and whole and that
no one could explain it. I gained full use of my arm and my hand.
I was diagnosed as mentally healthy and whole just as if it never
happened. And I began to start my life over. My ambition was to
make every day count as I now knew how precious a day was. I soon
discovered that it was impossible, to make every single day like
your last, but that I could go after God and fight for my promises.
I still continued to believe for healing with my back and as I mentioned
before it took about ten years before I was totally healed in that
regard.
I am thankful for what I have gone through. I have learned compassion,
I have learned about healing, I have learned not to give up - what
it is to persevere and I have learned that even when you think your
life is over God still has a plan. I also learned how to walk out
being an overcomer by the blood of the Lamb and the word of my testimony.
I am a child of God and....I am a miracle.
I believe in miracles because I believe in God - Kathryn Kuhlman
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